all of a sudden

..i just really hate the word FAILED.., it gets me crazy..!!it is really hard for me to accept that word,i can't even smile,am i not that good?,,it's like it is the end of the road for me,,,i hate failure..i'm starting to hate myself,,i am disappointed about the result,,damn i ain't lying,,after i have took those 700 or more items of your exam, past those interviews,, with just this polygraph test,, all of a sudden, all the hardships i have done, stresses, draining out the knowledge in my brain,,it's just all that,, you failed me because you think i lied to you,,damn this instrument...can't believed it!!who the hell are you...i feel frustrated right now...i can't forget the day i took that polygraph test.. ..!..